Hello All. The questions in this group have helped me substantially. I thought I was the only one having difficulty getting past beliefs and the end result.
I just wanted some clarification, if you would call it that.
My main "goals" and reason for investing in this program have been defined in my head for so long.
1. Manifest my ideal romantic partner or dream man.
2. Payoff my debt and stop going into debt
Its hard for me to "be" the person who has money, no debt and a loving boyfriend/relationship.
I don't know what that feels like. I only pretend.
I know I sabotage myself with self limiting beliefs. I know they aren't really true but they sneak up on me.
The first time I did the meditation it felt wonderful . I felt truly loved and wanted.
I saw myself married and in a loving committed relationship. Money didn't even seem to matter. I was holding a check that covered my debt.
However, I know I do not want to get married until my daughter is out of school/house. She is 14. I want the relationship now.
I try not to think about the how.
I don't want to look at the past so I also have trouble with the timeline.
I grew up thinking money was bad and there was never enough. I can make it but never hold onto it.
I never had a truly loving honest relationship.
I'm now 49 years old. I I always felt abandoned, not wanted , rejected and there was something wrong with me.
I have many amazing positive traits. My negative traits are sometimes overwhelming.
Jealousy, anger, "why not me", and what do they have I don't.
I've been doing the course for about 2 weeks.
I've been going over the first part everyday!
I absolutely LOVE the Changing events meditation!! I usually fall asleep to it.
Basically:
How do I "be" the person who has what I desire.
How do I create a positive timeline? When I look at the past I feel sad and foolish.
My coworker thinks I've lost my mind when I do the left and right brain integration techniques!
Nicole
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I'm working on it everyday. I have had a shift in being more specific with my Big Goal. I always knew what I wanted but Ive made it very clear. Clear on the feeling part and how to be the person who has what I want.
My coworker is very supportive! I
Kind of like romance novels and lifetime movies.